how are you?

dear diary. I just remember first day, when I went to school. I was 12. kids asked my, hi how are you Emily? and I answered. fine, I'm fine! everything is just fine. and then they asked me where are you from? where you lived? I said that I'm from Mars but that's not true. what would happened if I say that I'm not fine! I'm bad! When I was a kid, I was part of some Sadist Experiment every time when I made mistakes they bit me and locked me in a isolation cell without food or water. I bet they would said that - Oh that's to bad - and they forget it. I cant forget it, and I fell very bad! I'm want to die.

yesterday Bryan asked - how are you?
I answered technically - Fine, everything is just fine.
but suddenly he asked my a very seriously - no! tell me the truth, how are you?
and then I answered - Well I'm smiling but inside I'm daying.

I hated Bryan, after 14 year old. but then... I meet hem a little close, and then I realised that he is not a very bad person. he can do a good thing to... but I don't want to talk about hem... I just want to go and die! 

and that's it. Everyone thinks that I'm happy. I'm smart, beautiful and I'm having a very handsome boyfriend, who loves me very much. But I'm not happy. I'm a girl without a past! 

Hey there

dear diary. I'm Emily. I'm 16 year old. It is very stunning that we meet together. I hate diaries and I think... there are too many bitches in the world right? yep. I know that you will agreed with my. I'm always right... well almost. 

Today started the horrible day of my life. why? I understanding that Nick is Vampire!!!!

who is Nick? My best friend. but... I swear he never will became my boyfriend. he is so... Hot... a lot of girl likes hem, but... I love hem so much... after Joel died I created a feeling of hem. I know that our love is very strong... but there are so many dangerous thing that can juts destroyed me and my friends too.

In a real... I don't what to write. I juts want to say something to you. I love Nick, but I know that we never will be a together. 

become a years and I will merry someone else... and Nick will disappeared just like Joel does so... I'm ready for that. I can't be with a vampire... he is very dangerous to me... and my family. I love my twin sister, little brother and aunt but I hate my mother...

sometimes I think it will be a better if I just go and kill my self. but I can't. I'm having a responsibility and I cant just go and leave it...

But I'm not a good person. I use Damon to solve a secret of a seven sister and crystal... 

so... I'm Emily. I'm from blog and I'm starting to tell my story...