Crazy...

I'm a crazy bitch! why that? because... I had a Sex with Damon. very interesting and very danger to. dear Diary I almost died. 
Nick left me yesterday. no we didn't brake up. He's genetic is no a sex information. I wanted a sex and Extreme to so I just call Damon. It was very... I don't know... I was scared but I wanted that... lost my virginity in a Extremely and original... So...
I read some interesting States about how to call Damon. 
at 12 pm I put fire on candle (6) cut my finger and say Whispered Come,saint,come. than I closed my eyes and lad my fingers on my knee. 
Suddenly I hear someone was screaming. It was horrible scream. I didn't scare I woke up and went in a bed.
Night I hear someone was calling my name. - Emily... - it was coldly voice but... so Sexy... he cut my hair... I was looking It's  eyes.
He came closely. try to kill me. I didn't move. I knew that If I show some fear he would kill me in a moment. 
he screamed.
I didn't move.
he kissed me.
I kissed hem to.
He kissed my lips.
I didn't move.
he put he's penis in my Vagina.
I didn't move.
I was death.
It was insidious.
It was so cool.
and than he left me... 
I was so lonely.
I almost cry.
than I call Nick.
He came.
we talk every night.
He didn't know anything about my experiment.
today test showed me that I'm pregnant.

I'm no longer human any more.

how are you?

dear diary. I just remember first day, when I went to school. I was 12. kids asked my, hi how are you Emily? and I answered. fine, I'm fine! everything is just fine. and then they asked me where are you from? where you lived? I said that I'm from Mars but that's not true. what would happened if I say that I'm not fine! I'm bad! When I was a kid, I was part of some Sadist Experiment every time when I made mistakes they bit me and locked me in a isolation cell without food or water. I bet they would said that - Oh that's to bad - and they forget it. I cant forget it, and I fell very bad! I'm want to die.

yesterday Bryan asked - how are you?
I answered technically - Fine, everything is just fine.
but suddenly he asked my a very seriously - no! tell me the truth, how are you?
and then I answered - Well I'm smiling but inside I'm daying.

I hated Bryan, after 14 year old. but then... I meet hem a little close, and then I realised that he is not a very bad person. he can do a good thing to... but I don't want to talk about hem... I just want to go and die! 

and that's it. Everyone thinks that I'm happy. I'm smart, beautiful and I'm having a very handsome boyfriend, who loves me very much. But I'm not happy. I'm a girl without a past! 

Hey there

dear diary. I'm Emily. I'm 16 year old. It is very stunning that we meet together. I hate diaries and I think... there are too many bitches in the world right? yep. I know that you will agreed with my. I'm always right... well almost. 

Today started the horrible day of my life. why? I understanding that Nick is Vampire!!!!

who is Nick? My best friend. but... I swear he never will became my boyfriend. he is so... Hot... a lot of girl likes hem, but... I love hem so much... after Joel died I created a feeling of hem. I know that our love is very strong... but there are so many dangerous thing that can juts destroyed me and my friends too.

In a real... I don't what to write. I juts want to say something to you. I love Nick, but I know that we never will be a together. 

become a years and I will merry someone else... and Nick will disappeared just like Joel does so... I'm ready for that. I can't be with a vampire... he is very dangerous to me... and my family. I love my twin sister, little brother and aunt but I hate my mother...

sometimes I think it will be a better if I just go and kill my self. but I can't. I'm having a responsibility and I cant just go and leave it...

But I'm not a good person. I use Damon to solve a secret of a seven sister and crystal... 

so... I'm Emily. I'm from blog and I'm starting to tell my story...